I feel sick when I think of you. Not because you disgust me, but because I love you so much. I love you. There I said it. I love ever inch of you despite the things that have happened and the things you have done. I love you. Your dark hair and brown eyes. I love you. Your smile, your laugh, your touch. I miss you. I miss your voice. I miss you. I miss your smile in the morning. I miss the things you’d say and the things you’d do..I’d jump. I’d jump through hoops to see you. I’d jump. I’d jump at the chance to start over. I’m sorry. I’m sorry that I screwed up. I’m sorry I wasn’t perfect. I’m sorry. I’m sorry I deployed. I’m sorry I got married. I’m not sorry I had my daughter, but I’m sorry she’s not yours.

I’m waiting. I’m patient. I’m scared.

I feel sick. Not because you disgust me. I feel sick because you’re not mine. I feel sick because I love you and you no longer love me.

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